Hi Friends !!!

         I know I know it’s been a long time since I last blogged.By the way, when was the last time I blogged it’s been a zillion years it seems. But life has changed in these zillion years...something’s having changed for the better and some for the worst. I started this blog to kill time. What was a jobless engineer with a high speed internet connection supposed to do anyways??? Downloading movies and listening to songs gets boring after a point of time, doesn’t it??  So blogging was a perfect timepass.But now things have changed. This jobless engineer has been certified 'EMPLOYED'. So,find little time for life's little pleasures like blogging.

          But today is diferrent, it’s a bandh today here in Kerala.Don't know who called the strike, maybe 1 of those political fringe groups. But me being me am here at the office (what am I doing here,anyways??).Most people have not turned up to work today. So some time at hand, so thought of scribbling something on the Iland.But when I started writing I realized that I have nothing to write about. Life,it seems has become a 9 to 5 routine. Nothing much happening in life here. Or maybe I have lost my ability to observe and appreciate the little things that are happening around me. It seems I am stuck to my cubicle with one of those superglues and the world just walked by. But I am happy, my work is going fine, everything is fine....still this emptiness...something I can't comprehend. It seems as if there isn't any anecdotal value to anything that’s happening in my life right now.

          Talking about anecdotes... I finally got the courage to tell the girl I love the true state of my hearts affair. I emailed a love letter to her. And she being she reacted in a  way only she can. She has cut off all contacts with me.I to my surprise found the situtaion funny rather than feeling the emotional pinch. I don't know why. I seem to have gone into some kind of an shell, cut off from the rest of the he world. But I am still fine. All I wanted was her to know the true state of my condition. I expected to hear a firm 'NO'.(A 'YES' would have been great, though ;-))But she decided otherwise. No word from her at all. And that sucks. I expected her to have the spine to take a decision and tell me clearly once and for all. {'Coz the fact is,as much I have the right to choose her,she too has the right to choose or not choose me,and being an adult whatever decision she takes is RIGHT as far as she is concerned,and I respect that fact}.So now trying to achieve a RELATIONSHIP CLOSURE.I have absolutely no idea as to what this term means (caught it from a friend's conversation)...but still trying to achieve it :-) I am not telling you guys this so that you sympathies with me. To tell you the truth, even I don't sympathize with myself :-)

I wanted to touch upon an important point with this anecdote. After mailing the love letter, all through, I had this lingering feeling that sending her the mail was a big big mistake. I should have let things be as they were. So here I was, feeling miserable at sending the letter, and was asking God to show me the way. Many days later while I was just walking around the local mall, a poster caught my eye. The title of the poster was '21 ways to make your life happy’. As the mall was crowded and there was lots of hustling and bustling, so I had just enough time to read one of the points. And the point was an eye opener. It said.

"Be bold and courageous. Because when you look back, you will regret the things you have not done rather than the things you have done"

And at that moment I realized, sending the mail was the right thing to do. This one thing I won't regret ever. Hoping you guys too find the courage and faith to take on the world. God Bless.

Love,

Piyu.

PS: To all my friends on the iland : I do visit your pages often and read most of the blogs.And I enjoy almost all of 'em.But I don’t get the time to comment on them as such. So please forgive. And also I plan to regularly update my blog from now on. Do keep visiting. Love and a thousand kisses. God Bless. P